The flu, and praising Him
February 10, 2011 Leave a comment
My heart feels like it is being ripped in half. My four year old has contracted the flu, influenza type a. I havent had the flu or witnessed the effects of the flu in close to 20 years. So, as I watch my child lay listless, breathing shallow, and suffering from a 103 temp, I have a heavy heart knowing this may last for another 5 days. Yesterday, I felt the only thing I could do for him was to kneel by his bed and pray for him. My daily life has been halted, and everything else seem less important.
Yet during this I will praise God! I will praise him for the illness, which has given me focus and drawing me closer to Him, showing me, once again (oh how hard headed I am) just how much I truly need Him. I will praise Him that He has provided financially for the doctors bill and medication. I will praise Him for how much He loves us. I will praise Him for showing me the heart of a child. I will praise Him for healing my child. I will praise Him, in everything.
God sometimes allows trials and heartache, sometimes to bring us back to Him. Pro 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
He created ALL things, so I will praise Him, even for these struggles. Col 1:16 For by him were all things created, that are in heaven, and that are in earth, visible and invisible, whether they be thrones, or dominions, or principalities, or powers: all things were created by him, and for him
I cant help but think about how God gave up his only son, knowing what would happen, but doings it anyway because He loves us. Thats big love. I cant imagine the agony God felt on that day, being separated like that. I know how much I love my child, but it completely fails in comparison to how much He love us. While I am not worthy of His grace, He has adopted me into his family and accepted me as one of His own.
I will praise Him, for showing me just how much He loves me. Jesus is coming back for us soon!